"I'll look after you."

I was a mess a year ago. I slept all the time to not feel like everything was against me and to not think about how worthless I felt & I drank all weekend with my friends to also forget those feelings. I dont feel like that now and two things come to mind when I try to think why its different. 1. Spring Break. I realized how I felt about myself and the reckless things I was doing to myself and the people around me wasnt okay. 2. I met someone who makes me feel safe and lets me know I am worth it. As corny as it sounds... he saved me. What other feelings can be better than feeling safe, loved, and worth it all? There isnt. & I cant remember the last time I've felt all those things at once. The past 6 months have been so good to me. 6 months already. My friends love him, my family loves him, spent the past weekend at his family's home in St.Louis and they are great. This is so good.

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Happy Birthday to me!

My Birthday was last week! 22 is a weird age so my party was "21 AGAIN!" My friends & boyfriend are awesome. They got me a cake and everything. invited ppl over and we drank some at the apartment then went to bars. It was a great night. :)

Now I'm at moms for fall break. Next week I'll be in St.Louis with my boy. Cant wait.

"Louder, lips speak louder."

It's still so weird to me how things happen/work out.
I've got it all. I just wish I could have it all in one place. All my family, friends, school, and boyfriend.

The next few days are going to be so busy. Cant wait for Thursday :)
"I'm so in love it's retarded."